Things here are on the up. Trust in the Lord is my biggest weakness and I know He wants me to start figuring it out.
Spanish is getting ehh a little better. People just talk and I just nod and smile and then I always think to myself "is this an appropiate time to be smiling?" I told my companion I should start writing down all the crazy things that go through my head while im 'listening' to people talk.
The mosquitos here are gross, and the sisters legs are full of purple dots and scars. I refuse to look like that so I loaded up on bug repellent and I even got a bug repellent fan that I can clip on my bag, not ashamed at all.
Another thing about Florida is there are stray cats everywhere. its...interesting to say the least.
Lately a particular thought has been going through my head. Its the prophecy for the latter days that 'mens hearts shall fail them..for fear.'
Last week my companion and I went to an appointment with an investigator who we thought forsure was ready to commit to baptism. She will commit to a date two weeks out but then when the date comes she always says "no, not this Sunday". During the lesson I could feel my anxiety coming on as my mind was being plauged with irrational thoughts, and I was saddened by the reality that I knew it was time to drop this investagator. My companion and I both knew there was no more we could do for her. Olfelia is scared to get baptized because of what her children will think, because she doesn't believe God really loves her, and because of the tradition of her catholic baptism. But she has a testimony of our message. She believes it all. We had put so much effort into teaching her and prayed about what she needed, but we knew the Lord had another method for her.
When we walked out of the lesson I began to cry, I just didn't want to do it anymore. Then Elder Nelsons voice came into my head, saying 'mens hearts shall fail them.'
I realized that mine and Olfelias' hearts were failing us, because we were scared. Our hearts, our natural man are failing us not the Lord. Elder Nelson can explain it better then I can:
Well I love you all! have an amazing week! XOXO
Miranda, great to read your thoughts. Regarding Olfelia, please continue to pray for her by name if you do not continue to meet with her. I was at a PH Leadership Meeting last night and Elder Rhien from the sixth quorum of seventy said about an investigator he had and thought about not praying for them, "I received the thought 'you may be the only person on the earth praying for them'"
ReplyDeleteKeep up the good work
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