Well this week has been one of a kind. Our super humble quite investigator Felipe had been clean from alcohol for a month when we met him, then his wife told us he started drinking again. So we went to go teach his wife (who is progressing beautifully by the way) and he walks in, just totally drunk. Everyone just went silent. He left the room and we started talking again when we heard the sound of sharping knives in the back ground. He started walking towards us with a huge long knife and continued to sharpen it.....I was pretty sure that we were going to die. But here I am.....
Our other super cool investigator Dennis was out working in the Keys. We got a text from him and he explained that his car had broken down on the side of the road, then 3 boys in white shirts and ties pulled over to help him. Yep, the elders in the keys came to help him. Later his brother told us that he called him right away and said "you will never believe what's happening. I am scared!" Unfortunately Dennis fell into the trap of alcohol again this weekend. Please pray for him. He has so much potential.
As many of you know I am the worlds most indecisive person. And in the past two years I have had to make a lot of decisions. This week I learned as I was again making another hard decision, that through this experience God has taught me how He answers prayers. I have learned about the Nature of our Father in Heaven as well as the nature of the adversary.
This week I found out that I have to have my tonsils removed. But as it turns out after the age of 13 its a really hard recovery and very painful. They wont do it here in the field. The doctor said I could wait to have it done in 4 months but after talking with my parents and my mission president and his wife I wasnt sure if that was right. I didnt really know why and I couldnt really explain why. So I prayed, and I got an answer immediately. That answer was go home at my original date. I called my mission presidents wife and I told her what I was thinking. She said you know if you go home in June and have the surgery you wont have as much time to recover and time will be short before you head back to school. This made sense to me. Then President got on the phone and said "I know you are making the right decision. I had the same surgery when I was 25 and it felt like they cut off my head and then sewed it back on." (lovely). So with that I felt another extremely peaceful confirmation come from the Lord. Then I started doubting, and thinking that well I should just stay this is pointless, and my head started turning, and I started questioning the answer I had gotten, if it had really come from God. So I asked for a priesthood blessing and I got an immediate confirmation that I needed to go home in April. My heart started to even reject the idea of June. I dont know why the Lord needs or wants me home in April, but its so clear to me thats what he wants. It was my original date. and to let you in on a little secret when I asked for the extension I knew deep down that it was something that I shouldn't do. I rejected my answer from the Lord, but He made it work out anyway.
When I was questioning myself I told my mission presidents wife and she told me look at D&C 6:23. " 23 Did I not speak peace to your mind concerning the matter?What greater witness can you have than from God?"
she then said. "I really believe that once God gives us an answer Hes not the one making you question or doubt. What do you think?"
I learned that when God is going to give an answer He will give it to us and we will feel immense peace, but when we begin to doubt we are falling into the trap of the adversary. And sometimes those feelings can be disguised as feelings from God. But the nature of the adversary is to make us uncomfortable, to make it so we do not have peace. He wants us to be confused and he wants us to question God. I know that when God gives us answers we can not doubt Him. It is in the these moments where we decide to be obedient or not.
I love you all!!!
xoxoxo
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